throu d lookin glass..

ouch..my left arm feels heavy de..took a jab 2day 2 prevent cervical cancer..found out interestin facts but 2 lazy 2 elaborate..gota get anoder 2 more booster shots..d shots r more painful cos it has 2 b injected deeper than normal injections into d muscle of d arm..realy hurt alot more than oder shots i had b4..jus got back from pj Evangelical Free Church punyer organised music, dance n drama production..gota say d message tryin 2 b portrayed was good but was not realy convicted..at 1st i thot it was jus cos i couldn relate but later on discussed wif sam n she agreed dat d forgiveness part was not shown strongly enuf..basically heres d synopsis on d pamphlet:

This is a story of forgiveness and unconditional love.

After the death of their father, Ben, the ambitious elder brother, works hard to support the family. Ben has a younger brother, Melvin who is 'mentally challenged'. Since dey were young, Ben has had to protect and care for Melvin. Ben struggles as he is offered a better job in the city and eventually decides to leave Melvin in a home in pursuit of a better life.

Years later, Ben had a stroke which leaves him paralyzed in d hospital. He is only able to observe his happenings around him and is surprised when Melvin comes to visit him-and feels guilty because of his neglect in caring for his brother. Against all odds, when Melvin saw his brother in his condition, he decides to take care of his older brother. Ben is moved and touched by his brother's unconditional love and forgiveness towards him and is reconciled with him as he journeys on the road to recovery.

but mus say dat d way dey did d play was creative and not bad=) aso made me realised dat i haven't forgiven him for makin me so dependent on him..duno wat phie wen throu but she feels d same way..i realised dats d reason y i've been bothered by emos n stil tink of him..asked god 2 help me 4give n help me heal n realy let go..=) but feelin much better cos i'm not bitter bout it..i tink dats one ting dat has changed..anywayz aso compared dese 2 pics 2day..

d 1st pic was taken durin our doulous trip last yr..n d 2nd pic was taken recently when we went genting..interestin differences..haha guess it shows d experience we've all went throu=) anywayz jus short bloggin..need 2 finish up d last chapter 4 bio b4 i sleep..finals on 5 th nov i tink..haha..can't wait til d last paper on the 14th..lotsa plans after dat..spain..youth camp..gym..den plan 2 work full-time next yr til i start uni..n prob cont workin part-time while studyin if i can..can't wait=)

jus remembered dat 2day was d last day of classes for my SAM course..mm wat can i say..i left early..skipped phy which was d las class again..but as evry1 was wantin 2 take pics wif evry1 else..i jus sat dere..haha..not so dramatic as it sounds..but anywayz i thot..i'm endin dis course d same way i started it..i told myself dat i'll only b wif my classmates 4 less than a yr..knowin gdbye, i guess i jus distanced myself from dem..n i aso guess dats due 2 how hard it was 4 me 2 say goodbye to adrian n zhang when i depended on dem..n i realised how much of a loner i actually really m..anywayz no regrets..i find it better 2 leave wifout d drama..y make life so complicated;P din't even stay 4 d class party at 3 cos i made plans wif mom de..so it means its d last time i'll see any of my classmates excludin finals n results day..cos i'm not goin 2 d penang/langkawi trip neider m i goin 2 SAM prom..haha..owelz..

nice sentences i found 2day=)

Friendship is unnecessary like philosophy, like art..It has no survival value; rather is one of those things that give value to survival..

Forgiveness is the fragrance the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it..