Accomplishment..

I DIN'T MUMBLE WHILE LEADING KIDS WORSHIP DIS MORNIN!!!WOOTZ~!!!=D n i talked about BOLDNESS which even i've been strugglin wif..so ngam sumore cos dat topic act challenged me n all..n i was like..ngeh..i doan 2 talk bout it..y do i hafta talk bout dat of all topics..its been a long n hard struggle 4 me..to speak up n b different in a crowd..whined 2 phie n she was like..ok dun run from it u know..after become like jonah n get bitten by crab instead of eaten by a big fish..lol=P so after a long day yest..i thot of a devo book i used 2 use 4 quiet time in my shower..n i decided ok god..if i find a topic bout boldness in dat book, i'll talk bout it 2mrw b4 kids worship..n u know wat..AHHhhhHHH!couldn believe i act found one dat related 2 wat god put in my heart..ngeh..so fine lor..tink tink den go talk lor..but was encouragin=) its d last sunday of d year 2007 ppl..will u say yes when evry1 around u is sayin no?will u stand out n be d salt n lite of d world dat god has called u 2?(Matthew 5:13-16)

in dat devo book dey gave d example of a live football match n d only seats left for you is in a crowd of ppl dat support the team dat u dun..it so happens dat d team u support is winnin but how will u react?can u imagine if u suddenly cheered in a crowd dat doesn't agree wif ur opinion?4 me dats a big challenge..shy la=P

haha i gave d example dat a bunch of my close frens n d ppl dat i hang wif tink dat phie is a bad person..but i tink shes nice n dat she din't mean 2 make dem terasa..den i asked..so how?would u defend ur fren who in ur opinion is a good person?or would u jus go along wif d crowd choosin 2 b content wif wat u knew was d truth?in d verse John 7:10-13, it tells d story of jesus n ppls opinions bout him..some thot he is a good man while oders sed hes a fraud..BUT NO1 would say anythin publicly..besides god gave us d great commision of sharin d gospel..SHARIN meanin VOICIN it out..if dats not reason enuf 2 share den tink about dis:

"Whoever acknowledges me before men, I will also acknowledge him before my Father in heaven. But whoever disowns me before men, I will disown him before my Father in heaven"

~Matthew 10:32-33~

A fact hit me a few days ago i tink thou i 4got when was it..sum1 told me dat a person inviting u 2 stay at his hse 4 a couple of days is ENTIRELY different as some1 ADOPTING you to be their children..1stly tink of urself as d parent, it'll b so mafan..sumore gota take care of dat person, etc etc..but u know wat..dats wat god did 4 us..he not only took care of us from before we were formed in d womb, but he made us his children..

so heres a fact 2 tink about..wat if..lets say u got into an argument wif ur parents n ran away from home cos u doan dem as ur parents cos u doan 2 do as dey tell u 2..den lets say u got into trouble..like u got arrested when u werent doin anytin wrong!n like overseas u know parents can bail out dere kids..so imagine..ur only hope, ur parents, ur saviour dat would b able 2 do sumtin about d situation ur in..imagine dat at dat point in time...YOUR PARENTS DISOWNED U!!!!!AHhHhHhHHhHH!!!so how now?how would dat make u feel?dey abandoned u when u needed dem..but den again..u din't wan dem as ur parents cos u din't wana listen 2 wat dey wanted u to do..i guess dats a situation dat verse is talkin bout..thou i tink my example is kinda confusin..ngeh..owelz

wel tanks god 4 helpin me throu dis..i know you won't bring me to anytin i cannot go throu..d fact to remember is dat in d end..glory to u beautiful saviour..i know i've grown wif u dis yr..n it wasn thru ways i thot it would be..^.^

Questions

My Past

Mika~Happy Ending~

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.

This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love [repeat]

I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

My Present

Platinum Weird~Taking Chances~

Don't know much about your life
Don't know much about your world but

Don't want to be alone tonight
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past
And I don't have a future figured out
And maybe this is going too fast
And maybe it's not meant to last

But what do you say to takin' chances?
What do you say to jumpin' off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or a hand to hold, or hell to pay
What do you say?
What do you say?

I just want to start again
Maybe you can show me how to try
Maybe you could take me in
Somewhere underneath your skin

What do you say to takin' chances?
What do you say to jumpin' off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or a hand to hold, or hell to pay
What do you say?
What do you say?

And I had my heart beaten down
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing but love to pull you up,
When you're lying down on the floor yeah
So talk to me, talk to me
Like lovers do
Yeah walk with me, walk with me
Like lovers do
Like lovers do

What do you say to takin' chances?
What do you say to jumpin' off the edge?
And never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or a hand to hold, or hell to pay
What do you say?
What do you say?

Don't know much about your life,
And I don't know much about your world.

My Answer: Why Not?^.^

FEELIN BLESSED=)

6.45am: alarm clock rings..becky wakes up, looks at anoyin fon, offs alarm clock, back 2 sleep
7.25am: fon rings..zhang says: becky i'll b dere in 1min, becky replies ok..zzz
7.26am: becky drags her sleepy self dwnstairs n asks maid 2 tie d dogs
7.27am: zhang looks at becky..u realy jus got outa bed=.= becky replies: haha..hey go check my results 4 me..i jus had a dream bout it..n i dreamt i scored realy low like a C
7.30am: zhang says: oo becky u got strait As..4 A18s n an A19 for eng..TER97.70 becky: *speechless*cool..OMG!I GOT INTO IMU!!!!!hahaha*tells mom bout it*

well dat was basically my mornin n how i found out my results^.^ after dat i wen joggin, came home n bathed, wen col 4 no aparent reason=.= n wen pyramid 2 watch enchanted..again..but i'm feelin blessed=) zhang helped me shop 4 a present aso after dat..even thou he was tired he put up wif me so tanks bro=) azfar aso joined us but cos he din't have internet at home so he din't know his results yet..so me n zhang were like..how can u not know yet??!?!go check now!lets find a CC=P but me n zhang were like..wel i know deres a CC nearby but no idea were exactly it was..so after d movie we split n walked roun d shop area nex 2 pyramid n we found d CC..haha azzy got TER93.sumtin n i'm proud of him^.^ he'll b goin to melbourne uni nex yr..i'm stil in d process of acceptin d fact dat i'll b doin medi at IMU startin Feb25/28 nex yr..its stil kinda like a dream 2 me..wel besides dat we ate at sakae sushi 4 lunch n aso met wei jin, navin n evonne along d way..2 my surprised i found out dat wei jin n navin wil both aso b doin medi at IMU nex yr..coolies..i tink vishnu is goin aussieland but kor woi shud stil b goin 2 IMU aso..haha zhang was like..i'm standin wif TER97.sumtin ppl who r all plannin 2 do medi at IMU..haha shockin=P

wel zhang bought like 2dozen of J.Co donuts which costs like rm33 sumtin..imagine spendin rm33 sumtin on a bunch of donuts..hahaha got home round 4 den spent sum time writin out a draft on a story me n zhang r writin^.^ after zhang wen home bout 5 i wen 2 sleep..slept til i woke up bout 7.30 but was 2 lazy 2 move..since no1 called 4 dinner so i slept 4 awhile more..den decided 2 go dwnstairs..aparently my family thot i wen out again n thot i wasn eatin dinner=.= owelz..now here i m..still havent bathed=P tanks god 4 bein faithful 2 me=)

hola chinito!(hey chinese person)

b4 i blog bout spain..my frens MOM says i put on weight?????!!!!1stly..WAT D HECK?!?!??!?!2ndly i only put on like 2 or 3kgs..so like..heh?i din't know its obvious?=.= fine..new motivation 2 exercise..seriously i'm like..HUH!?!?!?!YERRRRR=P but 2 my defense..it was cos i went spain n ate mostly mainland chinese food..den u know its like oily n eider 2 salty or no taste at all..so yea..wat 2 do=P

ok puttin dat aside..spain was fun n cold..it was round winter so d temperature ranged from 0-15 degrees..madrid was d northest city we visited so it was d coldest..basically we landed at madrid..wen throu small towns but d big towns dat we wen were barcelona and lisbun which is in portugal..n of cos madrid..wel spain n portugal basically dun have any interestin souvenirs..n dey only have bull fights a certain period in a yr so when we wen dere dey din't have any bullfights=.= but i got 2 see flamenco dancin..it basically is like tap dancin..but instead of d dancer followin d beat of d music, d music ppl gota follow d beat of d dancer..so i thot it was quite interestin n loud..but my bro was like..so easy cos jus need 2 set d beat..i mean easy 4 d dancer..but i guess its more interestin dat way cos it gives d dancer freedom 2 follow emotions..haha owelz..besides dat i visited dis super big cathedral..dat was interestin cos instead of d columns supportin d weight of d buildin, d weight is actually spread out throu d roof onto d walls of d building so d walls r like super thick..aso saw a humongous organ..seriously its like those olden church organs or like count dracula were all d long chimneys producin d sound r like high n long..haha

o yea..i aso got 2 see goyas work in an art museum..so cool!i nv imagined i would b able 2 do dat in my life^.^ for those who r blur..goya is a famous painter who lived durin d 1800s..his work dat i saw mostly consisted of portraits of ppl..he even did sumtin like in titanic where d guy painted d girl wifout clothes..n nex 2 dat portrait was d same lady in d same pose wif clothes..n i found d way he painted lace-lace cardigan on a shirt..wow dat was nice..it looked so real..so yea..haha but oderwise d oder paintins in d museum had alot of christianity influence so it was kinda borin after awhile 2 me=P wel i bought lotsa chocs, alcohol n junk food which were cheaper than dey r ere..haha

anywayz i tink dats all i remember 4 now..i jus got home from youth camp which was good..d workshops were really good dis yr..i act din't realy wana go 4 d politics workshop but decided 2 go since i wen 4 music b4..dance was full n evangelism jus din't hit me..haha but anywayz tricia was good..she talked bout current injustice n wat ppl r doin 2 make a diff..i know it was all importan stuf b4 camp n god jus like challenged me further 2 b aware of all dis..i mean we r supposed 2 b aflame 4 god n neighbour..n d church is suposed 2 b 4 d oppressed..dat was sum tings i felt strongly bout..i aso thot bout how i would b able 2 give glory 2 god in d future if i do medi..so tricia exposed 2 me 2 ppl in need n a surprisin group was immigrant workers..believe it or not dey make up a big part of our community 2day n dey dun have any rite cos dere in a foreign country..i tink its easy 4 any of us 2 take advantage of dem like our maids..

besides dat, d how 2 spot a jerk workshop 4 girls was interestin..it kinda opened my eyes 2 understand my past better n know dat i'm in a better situation now..anywayz i'll jus share wat d paper says:

a jerk...
-self-centered
-wants his needs met
-is controlling(this part hit home 4 me..)

proverbs 13:20
" he who walks with the wise grows wise, but a companion of fools suffers harm"
translation: a gf of a jerk gets hurt

a real gentleman...
-fears god
-submits to authority
-has integrity(bein honest when no1 is watchin~den u know u can trust him)
-respects d girl
-wants d girl to grow(this means allowin her 2 do wat she needs 2 do n not restrictin her)

guidelines to a healthy relationship...
-court, don't date(courting: lookin 4 a partner 2 get married)
-don't be unequally yoked
-get spiritual covering of ur authorities. be accountable
-set physical boundaries
-listen to ur frens n family
-grow together(encourage one another)
-realise dat u dun own each oder until ur married to one anoder
-have fun!

~time doesn't heal a broken heart, god does...=)

basically dat was a sum of d whole workshop..d guys had anoder talk called how 2 spot a chick..haha besides dat..i thot d speaker of d camp was undertakin a difficult topic 2 connect n make ppl understand..but he did bring up interestin points like "shud christians b concerned about d environment?" so was quite interestin..d whole camp was quite tirin actually..we had telematches n AmazinGrace which is like each group gota go 2 diff stations n play games etc..d commitee did a great job thou..god aso surprised me throu worship..i always wanted 2 see god work throu worship, to see ppl rededicate demselves 2 him cos i've experienced dat b4 n it jus convicts u jus as much as a sermon does..now dat i've seen it, it makes me hunger 4 more..n jus reminded me of d purpose i'm servin besides givin glory 2 god..o dis camp aso had lotsa injuries n funny tings happenin..peter injured his leg realy badly, yih ren badly pulled his muscle playin pepsi cola..lol lotsa ppl got sick..o yea it aso showed me dat even thou sum ppl r strong n steadfast in god, it doesn mean dere not human, it doesn mean dey can't b discouraged..in d end its d responsibility of each of us who r in d worship ministry 2 carry d cross n d vision of wat we wana see throu each worship..not jus d responsibility of d worship leader..n if any of us r discouraged..we need 2 carry each oder..

conclusion: dis camp realy convicted me of sumtin i had in d back of my min de..which was how i shud respond 2 relationships wif frens, family n all d ppl round me..n gave me d semangat i need to make d 1st step, n 2 step outa my shell=)