murky waters

"who can say if i've been changed for the better,

but because i knew you,

i have been changed for good.."

this proves i'm still one..:)

bitterness is a double edged sword..

choosing to be sleepless..

oh so true, puts things in perspective..

eloquent, me?

W.O.W.

i awoke this morning to the sweet scent of mildew that lasted for the faintest of moments,

you know the type that comes in the sudden and surprising manner-the kind you never would have expected

as i walked around the valley, i was shocked to find you

in a cavern of sorts which still needed my help..

 

sometimes when i reflect back on the potholes of memories we made

i do feel like digging myself back into that hole..

 but without putting clay to the fire, how can it become more beautiful
so i pray that even as the paths diverge, the fire remains the same

 so heres to you and you,

and the changes and change you make:)

 All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another. 

 ~Anatole France

Oh, the comfort - the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person - having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring them all right out, just as they are, chaff and grain together; certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then with the breath of kindness blow the rest away.  

~Dinah Craik, A Life for a Life, 1859

procrastinus maximus

was trying to finish up my literature review part for my research project last nite, was summarizing a review paper and came across the topic of mechanical supports in preventing lower back pain..it was published in 1994 so d only ones dey talked about were corsets..so being curious (actually i was wonderin which part exactly does d corset help 2 support 0.o) i actually googled corsets..lol i came across something called corset piercing:

they may look nice, but honestly from wat i read bout it its really not worth d pain n hassle=.= according to wiki, (since i've been citing alot) its highly unlikely to become a permenant piercing as dere is high risk of skin irritation n non-healing..apparently its done for taking pics n dat also has 2 b photoshopped so u can't see d reddish inflammed areas..gosh d tings ppl do, well since i was procrastinating on my writeup (i still am..blah) i found oder types of corset piercing, dis time to make diff shapes..

i may be pro piercing n trying diff stuff, but after my nose piercing, i got kinda wth is dere a point if its gona annoy me like hell..i tink dats supposed 2 b a spiderweb but now it jus reminds me of a lotus flower..lol

at dis point i kinda realised i was done googling n had better get some work done..aparently dis pic is true, but i won't bother confirming it..d idea of it is jus wth enuf :)

dey make me happy :)

 hehe i tink i had a serious case of this back in high school, now i just don't care anymore..its probly spam messages..gees=.=

 partly cos dats wat i've been feeling-quite annoyed at dis guy who keeps asking bout roshnee(classmate n neighbour)..she has a bf now n i don't think shes told him..long story but anywayz blah doan to get involved so just stayin outa it=.=

hmm..dis seems bit weird wif d dice in her mouth n bright red lipstick..kinda hints to me dat a porno will b startin shortly=.= i like the eyes n d texture of d pic thou..

just for fun :D

 oh so many mistakes..

thought i was getting abit depressing :P

you are your own worse critique...

jus watched fast n furious 5 tonight..quite no comment bout d franchise anymore=.=

anywayz jus spent bout 2days(not exactly but during d span of :P) basically jus making a mother's day card..

yeap those are buttons on d right + a ball of yarn (miniature replica), dis is d cover, which i did on d 2nd day..could u tell i was getting bit lazy (pmsing is a bitch..shud have jus finished it all but i wud have slept at 5am on day1 if i did dat=.=) not sure wat i was tinkin wif d green, yes i spelt it as muther..originally it was supposed 2 have d O which is wif d green Ms but d word was 2 big so i had 2 switch tings around..n i jus gave up being a perfectionist=.= btw d burnt paper says:

"u r always there for us, even as we grow- 

til this day we're lucky we get pampering, yes we know- 

in this lottery of a life we got the very best 

all this we know is true to be because our mom is the best!"

(edited from a source online, kinda corny but eh watever..my mom is into corny)

d inside pages, my family has nothing much 2 say on paper so i thot i'd jus go ahead n fill up d whole ting:P its gona end up as a deco ting around my house anywayz..i got d idea for d butterfly body from an online ting i was looking thru, flowers found from craft haven at 1u since dey didn't have hole puncher tingy for flowers so i settled wif buying d heart shaped one..zipper in d middle is 2 cover d fact dat deres a gap in d middle plus i hate how paper crumples when u stick another piece on top n den fold it all..looks ugly bleh so i stuck a zipper i found..feathers for d butterflies found from mydin (it was actually some fridge magnet but i disassembled it n jus used d flowers cos i was 2 lazy 2 make my own..bwahahaha

lol moms cards r d easiest motifs 2 do man, moms do evrytin n r fine wif flowery feminish stuff..imagine if i had 2 make my dad a card, probly b stumped..mayb i'll end up jus gluing diff types of food on d card..scratch n sniff!lol but hoping i won't hafta make a card=.=

on another page of my story, my mom came n stayed wif me in seremban on d weekend in April, she brought my newest puppy along wif her named Mitchie (M)..now M is used 2 being let into d house cos shes so clean cuddly etc etc (pampered lil bitch:P) but d ting wif M is dat she HATES being alone, she can't stand it even if shes sleeping..she'll realise ur gone n go n look for u, half asleep n all..so my mom was upstairs while i went to bathe so we left M in my house kitchen alone wif d door closed so she'll finish eating her food..as i was bathing, i heard her being all emo n whining bout being left alone so i quickly bathed n wen to check on her..guess wat i found:

 yeap, she jumped up into my kitchen sink, my theory is dat she saw d window nex 2 d sink n was trying to break free from d prison but instead found it was lock n got stuck in d sink (she was 2 scared 2 jump back down..=.=) just 2 illustrate, dis is how high my sink is..we're still trying 2 figure out how d heck she managed to jump up dere...

spot wats not supposed 2 b dere!

but shes cute so she gets away wif tings..