Somewhere out there~

Regret is an intelligent and emotional dislike for personal past acts and behaviors

Guilt is a cognitive or an emotional experience that occurs when a person realizes or believes - whether justified or not - that he or she has violated a moral standard, and is responsible for that violation

Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection and attachment

"Some people make sacrifices out of guilt rather than love. But you can't feel that much guilt without love..."

me likey=)

Yes i know its so random..but hehe=P

ever wondered if this....

could ever lead to this?

Well you my friend, have been lucky, to never EVER have baked with my mom. Lets just say that after a day like today *hint we started at 10.30am and the kitchen is still in the biggest mess ever possible but at least the cakes n muffins are finally in the fridge and it is now 12.30am*, i never want to bake again. EVER. unless its at someone elses kitchen or somethin...>.<

Now before you start thinking that you shud start talking to me and asking wats up with the depressing mood you're having on your most recent post....lol read wat the artist commented about his picture...

"When death seems to be the only way out...do not forget to look to the side where the light is able to make a new seed blossom into a beautiful flower...."

And that my friend, is why i like this picture.

As twisted as it is....=)

o yea..i forgot to mention that..i just realised this fact that day..its not that easy to commit suicide..i mean if you're going to opt for the slitting wrist ting..well its not dat easy..to strike the major artery-radial artery, you would need to get the area between the radial bone and the tendon called flexor carpi radialis..lol i tink that was the reason i was trying to find a suicide picture..lol funny..=P

Off I Go

I forgot what things were supposed to be like...

but you reminded me...

Sometimes i think it is better this way...

but now i feel differently...

Remember how you should be...

for another to have it better...

Remember how to put upon yourself...

for someone to be released...

And so it shall come to pass

And one day things will get better

And you won't regret this decision

And the containment that will ensue

and so I WILL NOT ASK

Allegories

Surprised and commentless....in a 'wow, really???' kind of way....

C'est tout ce que j'aime

Becky just noticed how much shes growing to like Indie. Example?

• Skinny jeans. (Albert take a picture wearing this. PLSSSSS!!!!!!!!=( for me?????=P)
• Fedora. I would so get one if i could find one in my budget.
• Ingrid michaelson.
• Converse. Well with skinny jeans. LOL
• I duno if its indie but that big long cardigan thingy.

btw i'm blaming Sam and Phie mainly for this disease.

HAH!=P

i just realised he didn't trust me enough to let me be free...

>WARNING!!!EMO POST AHEAD!!!!reader discretion advised<

Okay you've been warned so YOU don't get to complain about this post being emo and all cause i already warned YOU and YOU chose to read it anyway. HAH=p

Anyway Zhang just left for the second time today at 5pm and of course Becky had a plan to distract herself so she woke up at 7.30am, went jogging(yes tan yang, twice ready..don't emo and tell me when u want to go=P), went breakfast, came home, slept, lunched, went over to Taru's to STUDY. Yes finally i am STUDYING. And now i just came home, dinnered and showered and borderline started my emotion crashdown i was expecting. I guess it really hit me only when i reached my room and checked me phone before i bathed. Then i thought to myself, well who am i expecting a message from anymore???Well not to sound oh so popular or something but i've always found someone to message just to make time pass when i need it to. Sad habit but oh so true. I guess the biggest thing missing to cause this fact to hit home is well, Albert. Ain't it true that he was always the one that was always there, always free. And i guess i also started to get used to Zhang being back too since he was back here for oh so long. Not that i didn't treasure the moments cause i did know they were precious and limited. And i do know that i made full use of the limited time i had left with those two buggers. Trust me, otherwise my wallet would be alot fuller>.<

Of course it takes two to tango, two hands to clap and make a sound and all those other metaphors. And i guess what i emo the most about is the fact that you don't know how things are going to be like in the future. I am fully aware that some people do come back after studying overseas and settle down back in our kampung called Malaysia but will things be the same? Will i know you the way i knew you before?? Will we still have the time to get close and hang out again??? All these questions just make me feel like i have lost something which i doubt i'll get back. And of course, we don't even need to discuss about those who are going to settle down overseas. After the first few years of acknowledging each others existence on MSN just cause we used to be close, we'll probably stop trying to make the effort of pretending the distance isn't taking a toll on our friendship cause IT OBVIOUSLY IS. There'll be fewer things to discuss, fewer things to ask and one day you would probably find yourself asking, hmm how do i know this contact i have on MSN again?

Okay, sorry for the pessimistic view but yes i have been through this and thought about this and emo-ed about this.

Anyway, its not that i'm trying to find a replacement for my need to message someone anymore cause i really don't see the point and i am dealing with it. I think i am quite stable now and in a much better condition than i was in. So overall, i guess i grew abit. Haha. Well, this whining is just my emotional breakdown thingy that i just need to get out of my system by telling YOU people, HEY!see this is all YOUR fault. You people got impact on my life okay. I'm not just talking about those two buggers but well the people that i see everyday or even every week. Yes YOU. Your my sayang group of close friends cause i gave you access to this cause i want you guys to know whats on my mind. Well, that is, not if you found this blog by accident or by blog hopping of course. I'm not some psycho who loves telling the whole world about how weird and quirky she really is=P Hehe. Quirky sounds cute=)

Hmm anyway i guess thats about all the emo statements that formed in my mind. Of course there is NO solution for this, its just something we have to deal with. And thats why i'm writing this down, cause theres nothing else i can do but accept certain facts and predictions.

Aaahhhh..back to the studying stressful life for me..missing the last few months already..=(

spin spin, turn around, and fall to the ground

now i remember y i hate goin 2 the dentist...agonnnnyyyyyyyyy..my gosh..plus d lady sed i had to remove my wisdom tooth, requiring minor surgery...GG OMGODDDD..lol n i have 2wisdom tooth, so i actually hafta do it twice...........*runs away n hides*

anywayz dis is a random post cos becky if feeling high..*spin spin turns around and we all fall down*


lol i went jogging yesterday..n my legs r unhelpful in walking today..

anywayz since i had to reach uni early 2day, i read sum blog archive and found dis..funny if u get it..not so if u dun..lol but altogether, definitely swted..=P

"Joe took his blind date to the carnival."What would you like to do first, Kim?" asked Joe. "I want to get weighed," she said. They ambled over to the weight guesser. He guessed 120 pounds. She got on the scale; it read 117 and she won a prize. Next, the couple went on the Ferris Wheel. When the ride was over, Joe again asked Kim what she would like to do. "I want to get weighed," she said. Back to the weight quesser they went. Since they had been there before, he quessed her correct weight. The couple walked around the carnival and again he asked where to next. " I want to get weighed," she responded. By this time, Joe figured she was really weird and to her home early, dropping her off with a handshake. When her roommate, Laura, asked her about the blinda date, "How'd it go?" Kim responded, "Oh, Waura, it was wousy,"


finding bits of happiness in d simplest things..now time for class..

RAWR~!!!!!!!!