..selfishly me..

mm findin it quite hard not 2 b selfish..interestin statement..althou i nv did elaborate on fefe dobsons song~be strong..takin a break from studyin bio..anywayz i find dat song quite reasurin..d lyrics r tellin u dat u know wat..i've been were u r..i know wat ur goin throu..n thou it seems tough..but i know u can get throu it..u jus need 2 b strong..n of cos its talkin bout bein betrayed by sum1 u love n losin dem 2 anoder person..n u know u shud b angry..but instead u jus break dwn n fin it hard 2 move on..wel when i heard d song..it jus seemed like god reminded me of wat i've been throu, wat i've overcomed n where i m now..thou i find myself bein quite selfish at times n tough 2 concen on oder ppls problems but i guess dats part of d solution i took 2 overcome a messed up situation of my emotions n troubles..wif time thou i'm sure it'll b sumtin i'll get d hang off..i hate bein selfish..den again i can't help bein selfish at d time bein..haha..prob sumtin i shud commit 2 god aso..on a lighter note..feelin freakin FREAKIN tired cos slept at 6am dis mornin til 12..thou no regrets jus dat it was d 1st time dis yr i slept dat late or rather that early?haha its been a long time since i had an intimate chat wif zhang n when was talkin 2 him at 3am it kinda hit me dat i was protectin myself n disclosin tings from him compared 2 las time..haha felt nice 2 b frank wif sum1 again..aso wen joggin 2day..m growin fatter tanks 2 deepavali n finals season..studyin always makes me hungry:p wel guess dats all i gota say..finaly confronted certain facts bout certain ppl close 2 me dat i redy knew deep dwn but was avoidin i guess..now i understand a lil more clearly y my relationship wif certain ppl is dat way..n i guess now i can restrain myself more n b tankful those close 2 me came throu 4 me n made me wat i m 2day..so 2 those dat shud know who u r n even if u dun..tanks 4 bein there when i needed u n when i din't..tanks 4 not bein dere when i was bein whiny cos dat taught me 2 b independent..as zhang sed i shudn depend on a stick 2 hold me up no more..i've always been independent but recently got 2 comfortable leanin on a stick n followin a path dat wasnt hard n din't require much effort..haha so 2 those..a silent wootz!tanks 4 bein a fren=)