Well since you did ask......

And I feel bad if I were to answer that question...honestly...and since i got no1 else 2 vent to..sigh sad case..i mean HEYLO "dratini" said it himself that I should NOT depend on it which does consist of venting..of course i do get what it was saying but still..sheeeesh...o i'm currently playing uno on facebook and getting screwed..but i am surprised since i did not win even ONCE yesterday but i'm proud to say i've won 3times since yestday..lol ain't it the little things that help draw a smiley?=P though i am kind of getting pissed now since the person who comes before me has dumped like 3 draw 2s on me since the game started=.= and she just skipped my turn..and i now have 10cards in my hand already=.= OMGOD SHE JUST PUT ANOTHER DRAW 2..I'M GOING TO KILL HER...WTH WTH...HAH TAKE DAT I KNOW YOU DON'T HAVE RED!ermm anyway back to the topic...lolies why am i putting up this post?i'm not sure really...i don't know what "charmander" will think it sees this but sigh..i need to vent so heck it..oops i think i just timed out on my turn..oh well..oh yeah..sorry about the short attention span..lol more like i'm trying to drag time before i have to pour out my heart and scare myself shameless..so unlike me i know..i don't know whats been wrong with me..must be the emo good movie=.= or probably just something thats been boiling over..like that mass motor hysteria thingy i studied..or something..HAH dat person that has been giving me draw 2s now has 11cards..HAH MISSY..HAH i won that game..wootz!

okay i've logged off facebook cause honestly, i haven't packed and its already 12..hmm what was i saying again...oh yeah..okie i'm back on track..trying to pick up the pieces of the train of thought i had...hmm yes well i said today sucks and i'm feeling grouchy..actually i think i hinted alot but it pisses me off that charmander didn't get any of the hints..or maybe its just being sensitive to what it thinks i'm thinking but then again how would it know what i've been thinking when all the information it gets comes from the genius dratini..annoying really..at first i didn't say anything about it and dratini made me annoyed about it also cause it kind of told me that "what right do i have to be annoyed about how charmander acts when it does not have anything to do with me anymore"..yes fine i'll admit it no longer has anything to do with me but HELLO! can someone tell me how does 1 change into a 2 in the span of like...a few days?makes me feel like screaming..and HELLO! it was someones words too..sheesh..hehe i just laughed at the irony that i keep saying HELLO! which is the name of a magazine..and i forgot how i know this fact also..*speechless*

ANYWAY, with all the hints, charmanders skin made all of them bounce back and laugh at me in the face..a sad picture really..not only that, i took a drastic measure by talking to charmander ear to ear..and i got to admit at least it did respond by asking whats up..and i guess i do get the point that it is tired so i saved all of my drama*deep breath*bundled it up into the massive basket of thoughts i have been carrying recently and poured it all out onto cyberspace..we'll see if i make this post for public eye after my trip..false hopes i hate having..sigh..talk about hopes..what the heck is wrong with me recently..its like i'm not satisfied, and once i've rectified, now i'm aching to not be satisfied again but now my train of thought is...well at least theres someone..then my logic bites back by saying HAH u think there'll be someone but its just going to be more work..look at where both of you pokemons are at now..you're at the pinnacle of the toughest place to be in if you guys are going to be connected by that red string..not only that, you've worked at it once, if you're going to try it again, how do you know your not going to end up just at the same spot you are now???

Well, in justification, i do realise i might have freaked out quite a bit when i decided to chop that red string..and i do admit i was expecting some form of thread to be clawing to gain a stepping place..but since there wasn't any..i was left to dwell in my thoughts, selfish thoughts like..i'm now on an island, again, but this time there is no person to wake me up from the dream..whereas i get annoyed when charmander has its own species to talk to..and i do know there is a purpose to chop that string because i think in a way we were both holding each other back..in some ways or another..its weird to realise it, i know..but then again i've realised alot of things lately..like suddenly, i've looked back and been wowwed..gah i hate expressing myself like this..and i doubt i've expressed it the way i wanted to..but its ready 1am and my brains falling asleep..haha and yes believe it or not i also do have a conscience..and that is..for one year..the promise to myself..it is my challenge after all..and also, well, if the threads do rejoin, i would've felt like it was cause of my selfishness..being even more unfair than i was when i chopped the threads..but well, it is also annoying to keep having useless thoughts popping in my head like a replacement and all that crap..GAHHH..IT IS TIME TO SLEEP..i think i've poured out my shame for more than enough in this post..zz..and in the end, i still have no conclusion to shut my thoughts up..neither do i want dratini's opinion on this so SHUSH if ur reading this before our trip which i hope you aren't cause that would be annoying-to be stuck with you the next few days and not being able to hear the end of this topic..haha LANG TENGAH HERE I COME!the last time i went there, i decided to break up with my boyfriend..at least i'm not worried about that this time..LOL